Ugly JuLiet! Listen To Your Heart...

Dazed!

2007-05-05T11:05:00.001-07:00

Today I go to school in the morning. The school was very boring because in the school i only dazed... dazed n dazed... You know why? that's all because the school have not a study time. no lesson in my class, in my school... Really did not have the other activity moreover. The only one that made the spirit for me went to the school is
juna. He who made me feel at home in the school. But occasionally his friends often made me embarrassed. They always ridiculed me if I through in front of them. arghh... i cant think another difficult when i got some laugh from them. i'm happy but also embarrassed. i dunno what i feel. but... yeah, you know... i can forgot ruben, although just for temporary and that so make me more better than before.

hmmm...
tommorrow i have a holiday until 11 may. I will enjoy this holiday by have fun with juna. Maybe that will make my brain fresher. but i dunno, where we will go on holiday. Maybe to the beach, but I have been bored there.
So?? What's the best result for this holiday?

plaining to change my skin for this blog. but i'm still confused about that. i already look for the blogskins to find a good skin but that make me more confused. that's all because too many nice skin in that site. hwaaah... i opportunity saw the nice skin one in this blogskins. so, i will change my skin if i already prepared to leave my currently skin. i love this skin very much... haha...
just wanna say that!

The love was painful

2007-05-03T06:59:00.000-07:00

I did not understand with what was felt by me. Although he has hurt my feelings but I continued to love him. I could not really forget him. How to forget him? My feeling can never forget him all my life. Because with him was the most beautiful memory in my life. I trusted the love, but the love was too painful to be felt. Too many sufferings that were given by love to the person who trusted the love.People say the love was beautiful.
But after I felt that his name the love, I did not trust again the words "love was beautiful".
Because that was obtained by me uptil now only was offended because of the love. So, what could be done by me? Only continued to be waiting? Not was waiting that was the very boring work?

Problems o a friendship

2007-04-10T03:35:00.000-07:00

i feel so tired lately... i have so many problem, especially in the school. this problem's sometime make my mood is so drop. maybe i can told about my problems. well, in the class i have a girly gang. there are 4 person in my gang. they are me, rissa, tisya and tiara. formerly i don't know so much about the problem. but now i know from tisya. she tell me about her problem with rissa. i understand, but i think it's just a wrong understanding between rissa and tisya. i know rissa is very impossible to make a trouble becouse she's too calm and kind. and tisya... she's too arrogant and egoist. she's never care about her friend's feeling. i don't know why. but i'm sure about that. i ever hear her conversation with her boyfriend. do you know what she say? she say...
"in the class, who person's audacious to me?! moreover rissa, she's impossible to versus me."

Ugh....
damnshit!! she make me and the other's personil of the gang so angry! and now, i don't care if rissa and tiara will not make a fine friendship whit she! but, i just confused... although she's very bad, but she's still my friend. perhaps, this problems can make tisya to be more better than before. i hope so...
too many time to repairing our friendship. but i don't willing our friendship have a problem only becouse a not so big problem. i can call this not so big problem becouse if we don't make this problem's more and more big, this problem is will over.

like a butterfly

2007-03-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

love is like a butterfly
increase you chase, increase that avoid
but if you undone that to flying, the love will come close to you
love can make you happy, but also often breaking your heart

but the love is just special
if you give to someone that proper to receive the love
well...
just be calm
don't too quickly to find the love
until you can chose the better

yeah...
now i still hesitant about love. i afraid to fallin' in love. but i know, my heart is can't do that. i'm too easy for fallin' in love.

have a vacation day

2007-03-28T12:35:00.000-07:00

tommorrow i have a vacation day. i dont know what can i do. i'm sure the vacation will be very bored. obvious! i have not another activity be sides stay in front of computer. i will be go haunting, but if i'll be haunting with no body, i think that's not absorbed. fairing well i listen to music at the same time i will internet browsing.

oya!
at the moment that i hear a cute song. the song is by indonesian language. but i can translate that to english. maybe you know this song.

if she love you, beyond my love for you
i difinite acquiesce to undid you
although i know i will injured

if everything is different
you doesn't people that i love
but my heart still chose you
although impossible for you to leaving her

become me to a second
make me happy
although you never i belong to forever...

but i think, wich girl is be ready to got a second love like the lyric of the song...

no ruben, no cry!

2007-03-28T06:47:00.000-07:00

i don't understand. why he come back to me when i try to forget him? i be afraid he hurt my heart again. although i still love him very much, but i can't to receive his love. b'coz i know... maybe he just playing my heart. like for the time being. when he can't find a good girl, he come to meet me and make me fall to his love. but, when he find a girl and the girl is better than me, he forget me and don't care about my feeling. he bring me to his life, but he make me misery. sometime, he can make me happy. but i know that's just temporary. so, i will not thinking about him again. i will determined to forget him. no ruben, no cry! i'm sure about that.

happy forgotten

2007-03-27T09:56:00.000-07:00

do you know, today i can't to be a fine girl. i'm very dizzy. do you know why? that's all b'coz i see ruben's face in my mind. i still loving him very much. what can i do now? no one can understanding me included my self. if i will not to hurt my heart, i must forget him. that's for my happiness. but i can't do that! everytime i try to destroyed my love for him. but that is so hard for me. realy hard!! oh god please help me! i know, only the long time will make me forgeting him.

happy forgotten!

can't see him

2007-03-27T02:49:00.000-07:00

this time i have a headache. perhaps that is becouse i often stay up and talk all night. but i must go to school tommorrow. i will not remainder my lesson. i will be a deligent student. hieh.... that's so hypocrite. haha. yeah, i want to reach out for and touch my future. i want make my parents happy.

hmmm... another side, i have a problem with my lovely again. i don't know why everytime we always have a many problems. i have a plan to make a meeting with him. but he disagree. he tell me that he can't meet me b'coz he still busy. i can understanding about that. but i miss him. i can't endure if i don't meet him for one day. maybe he don't miss me. huhu... but i will not to negative thinking.

easy now...
i will be happy although i can't see my lovely for today.
still there is another day to can meet him.

rainy day, lazy day

2007-03-26T15:56:00.000-07:00

the rainy day...
i will not go to school. hmmm... very lazy! but, how can i go to school if the day is swift rainy. whereas now i have a assignment in the school to manage the student program. yeah... i'm very lazy. although my friend tell me to go to school to day, but i don't responding that. perhaps i am an important student i the school?... haha. just kidding! oya, i am almoust forgeting something. this is about erick my senior in the school. he is my fans and today he has a match football in the school program. he tell me to join the suporter club so that he has a more spirit to playing football. but.... i'm confused. if i came to be a suporter, i will make him to wish me anymore. huuuh.... maybe, i must quiet at home for today.

i can't forget you

2007-03-26T11:48:00.000-07:00

in this night i feel so loneliness. i think i remembering my former love. he is ruben. i still love him very much although now i'm already have a new lovely. i can't forget him. i too love him since the first i see him at july 2006 until now march 2007. that's so make me crazy.

for ruben...
do you know i love you? do you know every i try to close my eyes, i always see your face. and every night i never forget you. you came to my dream and you make me feel your love again. altough that's all is just a dream. but that's can make me happy to temporary. i hope you can cause what i feel. you hurt my heart by saying for me that you will not see my face to long time.

if you now...
we need one second to crush someone...
one minute to like, one hour to pity, one day to fallin' in love...
and needs a long time to forget someone that we love so damn much...

but you can't understanding that. you forget me for a short time. very2 impossible for me to forget you.

everytime i try to find your love. everywhere i always remembering you n our love story. but i don't know why that infact hurt my heart. i will forget you but i can't!!!

Trouble

2007-03-25T11:21:00.000-07:00

today i have a big trouble with my lovely. he has a mistake n that so make me angry. do you know what happened? this is the story...

that's time my friend [ his name is joe ] have a birthday. and he invite me to his small party. i still confuse b'coz i'm afraid my lovely don't like if i came to his party. of course my lovely don't like. b'coz joe love me very much. and that make my lovely jealouse. i can understanding what his feel. but i think that's no proper.in my mind, i make a plan to not contact with him. i still angry. i don't like his manner to give expression if he jealouse. i'm very2 fed up!!
but now i already forgiveness him. i will not make a next trouble.